I have forever existed as a compilation of all my most cherished melodies and lyrical verses, specially the ones that resonate deeply within. The deeper the hollow, the stronger the bond.

Is it magic? is it witchcraft? The way music steers my feelings remains a mystery beyond my grasp. On days when I’m lost within my own thoughts I yearn for songs that gets my heart broken and soul crushed. There’s a certain fulfillment I experience in living those moments through those songs. Hours slip away in the blink of an eye as those playlists keep playing on repeat.

When I’m feeling down and my mind is filled with thoughts, I turn to my favorite musicians. It often makes me think about whether I could’ve made it through all these years without Thom Yorke, Damien Rice, Ben Howard, Steven Wilson, and Chester Bennington. I wonder if they can create songs that touch us so deeply without feeling those same emotions.

I’ve noticed that when I’m going through a rough time, these songs can trigger more negative thoughts that weren’t originally related to the reason I started listening to that particular song or playlist. Is it scary? Absolutely. But strangely, it also provides some comfort. So, I’m often torn. Do I avoid these songs to put on a fake smile, pretending to be someone I’m not, or do I embrace the vulnerability and let the music guide me through the depths of my feelings?

These songs that resonate with the deepest corners of my soul are more than mere notes and words; they are the brushstrokes on the canvas of my emotional world. While my journey in this life can sometimes be marked by uncertainty and complexity, it is a journey I wouldn’t trade for anything. Music not only connects me to the melodies and lyrics but also to my own innermost self the one I’m hiding from others.